dreamwriter_emmy | Disney Castle Voice Post:

This past week, I have been lying. I have locked comments from a lot of the group, if only because I do not think the way many of you do and I doubted you would understand unless I found some way of explaining...that was clearer. Now I have found a clearer explanation.

Foolish I may be... but I do believe a Dreaming will be possible someday. Even if only accessible in dreams, but, if what I want to say can be said, I shall quote a book of my own. This book speaks my own heart and resonates far more with the thoughts of the Refugees than the Neverending Story. My own recommended reading, perhaps.

'In Life's name, and for Life's sake, I assert that I will employ the Art which is its gift in Life's service alone. I will guard growth and ease pain. I will fight to preserve what grows and lives well in its own way; Nor will I change any creature unless its growth and Life, or that of the system of which it is part, are threatened. To these ends, in the practice of my Art, I will ever put aside fear for courage, and death for Life, when it is fitting to do so- looking always toward the Heart of Time, where all our sundered times are one, and all our myriad worlds ~~whole~~ lie whole, in that from which they proceeded...'- The Wizard's Oath, species-nonspecific recension, The Book of Night with Moon, Book 1 of the Feline Wizardry series, a side-series to the Young Wizards series by Diane Duane

The Heart of Time.Timeheart.that is MY Dreaming....the Dreaming I work toward right now. A step forward in taking a step back. I'm trying not to pick fights and not to lie.because lying and fighting only speeds up entropy and takes away my Dreaming from me. Love....love is what makes my Dreaming be. 'What is loved, lives.' That is the definition of Timeheart in the books. And that is what I believe in...always even when things look dark, hopeless and empty. I believe the worlds have balance for a reason, but that we should be working to keep the balance flowing like water. I don't believe in completely eradicating entropy with light, but in making it flow. Entropy causes change, and change is just as important as light and peace.

*sigh* You don't understand. Timeheart isn't the same dreaming as the one Xemnas sees.

Similar, yes, but it is not a force that we have made nor one we can make. Instead, it is one that existed before.. .Before the worlds desired too much love. It is a place of rest more than anything else. It is the world made by whatever higher power is already out there. On another end, it is only accessible by dreams and serves only as a temporary resting place. One cannot stay in Timeheart permanently in this life. It is...an aspect of heaven, of souls and memory that we mortals can visit occasionally when something is easier told in dreams, than in reality.

I hope for a day when Timeheart will be the world, but at its own pace and at the wishes of the Higher Powers that already exist. Not at my own demands.

Timeheart does not control anything. We can't control it either, all we can do is visit, honestly, when we seek a rest in our work. No one lives there permanently, but it is a meeting place to visit the ones we love who have moved on. It is peace that has always been, one that sees death and change as a positive force, a blessing.

Why did I hide things from.. everyone? *nervous laugh* Because human nature is a force of sheer skepticism.

And because people do not see that a Dreaming doesn't have to be a permanent world that we control. Because while many people believe in higher powers, most do not use those beliefs as they should.

Because it seems almost every time someone says 'I believe in a Dream.' Someone else shoves a denial down their throat, claiming that it's dictatorship.

No one wants to think about the possibility of another version of the Dreaming. They think every Dreaming is Xemnas's Dreaming. So if I told Xemnas that I think he has a beautiful thought, but that I see... Dreams differently than he, people would still think I'm siding with him, if only because they don't see the later part of the sentence. People only see and hear what they wish to see and hear.

And that hurts far more than anything else.